They'll come for you if/when

I grew up in a very religious home, in fact you may call it anti-religious because it had nothing to do with religion at all, as most religions do. Among other thing the God I was taught of was a punishing God, and so no, “he” was never on my side. When you grow up like this, you end up walking alone. You walk alone in your struggles as most of those around you who are influencing these things walked alone in their own lives.

One of the most fascinating things I’ve heard since finding my own spiritual peace is that the soul walks with you, alongside always and they listen when you speak, or think, or do. When you begin to seek out the soul the soul responds louder and louder, and eventually you can make out a concrete pattern of intervention by it and the stars. They both assist in ways you never thought possible and in tandem with you, because you are always in control of that phenomenon - that is, whether it is present in your life or not. You either invite it in to spend time with you or you simply do not think of it and so it never comes. I can recall over the years several times the intricate patterns have been shown to me and it is only then that I am able to look at others with a humanity I have never known. “Harm” becomes a “favor” and the most violent affliction becomes an act of reverent awakening which for years is remembered as a pure alteration of DNA.

Here are some examples (it all began in 2017, the year of my spiritual awakening):

After continuously tolerating abuse, not willing to move an inch, one night (very late) I did a U-turn in front of my apartment building where my partner also lived, to park my car. Their car passed mine at the exact same moment, as they themselves were looking for parking-but they did not see me. I stayed put, waiting, then watched them come from around the corner with someone else and as my eyes burned they entered the building together. This was intervention on my behalf and would set off a series of severely critical transformations I could never have realized otherwise.

After recognizing alcoholic behavior in someone I was dating yet unrelenting in my pursuit for a healthy new love, my inner child made a rare appearance asking me to back off and I went nowhere. I pursued encounter after encounter until my date stood me up on a significant night and called things off for good. This was the stars carrying me into another room to lie down, because I had upcoming work to do within the group setting of human services that would last for two years.

After having sex for the first time in years, I was unwilling to accept that the person I had it with was not a romantic prospect and refused to loosen my grip, only to become physically unable to have sex for the next 6 months due to health complications. This was reprieve before I embarked on a year-long search for a wellness sanctuary, that included natural foods and body hygiene, to rival my unhealthy attachment to eating and exercise. My entire lifestyle and how I approached both would forever be altered.

This post came to me before I was awake a few mornings ago. Similar to small children, when we are exiting sleep mode we have just traveled astrally to the liminal realm, where we have received sacred information that could never have come through the physical plane (the small children reference is that they just came from the same place since having been born so recently and so they possess knowledge that equally could never be attained through the physical plane). As soon as I was conscious but not yet fully awake, I heard the words repeating “they’ll come for you as soon as if/when” “they’ll come for you as soon as if/when” “they’ll come for you as soon as if/when” “they’ll come for you as soon as if/when.”

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