The more violent it is, the more violent you are
When we are children, we receive so many messages that make us recoil ourselves. We run to the backyard and dig the same hole, at age 1, 3, 7, 12, 17, and even 21. We frantically drop what we know is unacceptable inside. “I have to trash this,” we think. “Because I shouldn’t be gay. I shouldn’t speak up. I shouldn’t shave my head. I shouldn’t cry. I shouldn’t dress like this. Look like this. Everyone hates my body, so I’m putting it in here too.” We cover the hole with dirt. And the earth swallows it. Until we wake up at 45, and realize we are not ourselves. We are not who or where we want to be. Why? It is time to trace it all back to our Edenic state. Pre-shadow. It is time to swim through the earth, to find our long lost pieces. The pieces of us that are of the most value, the most treasure. All of what shut us up in the first place, reverted. It’s hard to believe traits we assumed were “bad” once upon a time can actually nourish us. But you will find there is something hidden within it that you need, what is it?
Some research to help you get started:
Although these are card readings, the authors turn them into something else entirely - valuable insight: Human Kintsugi and Revelations of a Witch.
A significant read: Owning Your Own Shadow.
One man’s enlightening story about being lost in his own shadow (this is like 50 pages long but trust me it’s worth it).
It is worth the initial $4 to read what Making Spirituality Real has to say, about The Art of Rejecting False Projections. Although this is more Chiron-focused, it still contains good info.
While researching clairsentient children, I came across this article about healing and integration by Anysia Kiel.
Jennifer Diane is a witch scholar, writer and model based out of New Jersey. She’s authored Folk Horror, Rural Horror, Devil’s Manifesto, Emotional Horrorshow, and Salvation. Book a one on one session, shop her books and zines, or find her on Instagram.
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