[Man’s voice] This here little lady don’t like her daddy but she don’t like other men either.
[Cut to two women sitting on a porch in Tennessee]
You think yer God or somethin’? You ain’t no God. You ain’t nothin’ but another lost human. I seen the rooms in your house, packed with things, buncha scattered trauma. Believe you me you got trauma livin’ this way. You won’t tell me how to live mama only God is gonna take me there. You think God inside of you wieldin’ his power. All you got inside is yer own personal agenda pushin’ and I won’t stand for it. I got my own God and I know what he tells me. To stay away from people like you, who don’t want what’s best. You live offa control and so you ain’t really livin’. Ain’t helpin’ no one but you when you say y’know what’s best. I got to go mama and I’m sorry! But I got to leave in the mornin' so I can survive. I won’t survive here. You and them taken up all the air I try ta breathe. I got to leave to survive. I fought hard to get here mama and you may not understand. But it ain’t for you ta.
How did we get here? I cannot sit in one room with ya’ll without the added trouble of ya’ll pickin’ apart this life I got. The only life I got. The life ya’ll preach on about Jesus gave me. If Jesus gave me this life then it fuckin’ worth somethin’ ain’t it mama? Ain’t I worth somethin’? Don’t happiness deserve to come by my doorstep too? Don’t I deserve to find it? Don’t it lie in being who I truly am, truly, in my life? But that don’t matter to ya’ll do it. All that matters is exortin’ a heavy hand to ensure I end up just like you. Well it follows then that I’ll run out. I’ll run out on you and everyone I’ll run out this town. Far from you and far from anyone who thinks their God, who thinks I should be like them. I will not be like you. I will be who I’m supposed ta be, just like God intended.
I been swallowed whole here mama, I wish you could understand! I’m leavin ‘cause, I’d rather die than end up like you.
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