When I first started on Substack back in 2022, I only wrote my fiction stories. When I was much younger I kept many journals in which I would let my feelings out as it was the only way I knew how-I couldn’t speak then, while later in life I wrote poetry to self-express and my feelings would come out that way. As an adult this process grew into fiction through characters, other dimensions and time periods. I would find people in my psyche just sitting there, whether a dream triggered their presence or a voice inside my mind. My feelings became actual tangible people.
The old name for the newsletter was Dark Lord Show Me the Way, and this came from a “goatbook” I bought from Michael Roger, the man who creates those composition notebooks. I saw Baphomet when I bought it with the goats all over the design, and I bought it to help me increase my faith in myself and my creative path. I still use this notebook today.
For whatever reason I felt Baphomet, the Dark Lord, the father/protector figure represented my future and also I needed him to show me the way spiritually. Every fiction story I write is in the spirit of this deity, and over a year ago I made the below trailer to represent all he and this section meant to me.
Description of trailer: Featuring the music of old and I mean old Led Zeppelin (The Battle of Evermore), one night I was listening to 104.3 the classic rock station and it came on. I was mesmerized by what sounded like a bunch of witches and warlocks singing, and that’d be Robert Plant as you would assume along with Sandy Denny, a British folk rock singer. Only later did I discover the synchronicities - its lyrics (referencing the Lord of the Rings) include the “Queen of Light” (@dianeoflight was my old screenname) and the “Dark Lord” and has to do with setting up “the destructive world of war in opposition to an idealized and Arcadian peaceful home.” In so many ways this is exactly what Dark Lord Show Me the Way embodies. I think it was always meant to represent this section musically.
Dark Lord, show me the way is about truths we don’t ever want to hear or speak, and its themes range from death, figuratively and literally, to lovers, mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, siblings, persons of no gender and generational trappings. It is about the way we silence ourselves until one day we scream so loud the ground shakes, and the earth opens up, swallowing us whole so that we can be rebirthed into a new life. One clad with functional boundaries, wild awareness, heightened intuition and emotional intelligence - one where we end up with the right person (spoiler alert: it is ourselves), one where we answer the call of authenticity. This is important, if we are to reach self-actualization and live the lives we dream of, the lives that are rightfully ours. This is important, if we are to thrive in a 3d world that wishes you wouldn’t-so they can continue to make money off your low vibration, illness of the body, and sick sadness of the mind.
I hope you enjoy the trailer as much as I do.
Jennifer Diane is a goddess of darkness, writer and model based out of New Jersey. Since 2017, she has not stopped gathering self-help resources in an effort to grow where everything was dead. Besides running Healing with the Occult, Jennifer holds guided sessions on Acuity, shares the radical truth on the Enlightenment through Hellfire podcast and creates books and zines for Endeavors of Horror.