Becoming your own channel

A series of synchronicities happened recently: I received an astrology/human design combination reading as a gift for Yule and during that reading it became clear to me that my life is meant to be spontaneous so that I can always end up in the right place at the right time. A few weeks before this, a woman in my spiritual group pulled a card for me from the Earthly Souls deck and it was the card of Spontaneity. The description read: “Spontaneity is a gateway through which your purpose can emerge, go with the flow at times to step outside of your comfort zone, throw away your box,” with “unexpected” and “impulsive” as the keywords. In addition, my moon reading last week stated that when the First Quarter Taurus Moon hit there would be a creative opportunity requiring me to step out of my comfort zone. I read a lot about the moon and have read that under a Taurus moon in general we can address our issues with blocking how we receive from the universe. And remember that whenever you allow yourself to receive you are able then to give something back.

I’m a Virgo rising so it’s not easy for me to let go but today I had an experience - proof - that taught me that I am constantly being guided and I can and should trust that more. In other words, I am my own channel, and I should never half-believe that fact.

Usually on my days off I schedule time to write, but every day will not be the perfect day to write. If I listen closer, my soul may want me somewhere else. I may have something else to do that is of more importance than writing and accepting this is key instead of forcing what I want my day to look like - especially when I’m in the middle of several projects that need to be completed - the urge to force things is greater. When I woke up I was creatively in tune, I could feel myself humming songs of inspiration and feeling ready for the full day that I had to myself. Suddenly a photoshoot idea came to me and I found myself GPSing where I would go to execute it. This was over an hour away, no problem. I intuitively chose my outfit then left around 2pm.

I stopped for gas and this is where self-sabotage took over. The sun started to come out whereas before the sky had been pure white which I love that scenery for a shoot. I wasn’t sure I had enough gas, it was “too” late, “too” far, and more and more excuses started to roll in as to why I couldn’t follow my instincts today. My mind took over, my feelings quieted down. I then stopped to eat lunch and think, instead of feel. It got even later. I decided to make my way to the library to write, and forget about these unexpected plans, but when I got there I felt so off that I didn’t even get out of the car. My soul felt like something was missed and I realized no part of it was ready to sit at a library and write, so I tried to salvage the shoot by going somewhere local and that didn’t work out because what was channeled was specific. Since I never fulfilled it nothing else would do, nothing else would feel as satisfying.

When we channel ideas or wishes from the ethers then execute, it is like magic. “Today, I’m in the mood for Channa Masala and an iced Jasmine Tea from Whole Foods.”

:::Goes to Whole Foods, buys Channa Masala and an iced Jasmine Tea, comes home, eats/drinks, feels pure happiness and satisfaction:::

That’s a really simple example but works the same. The only difference: it’s easier to feel our way toward mundane decisions whereas when it comes to our work or creative lives we doubt ourselves. I amended the energy I blocked that day by taking myself to the designated spot two days later, accomplishing the shoot (so making amends is never off the table). The takeaway is that you are a channel, do not doubt the flow of energy that is constantly making its way to you from the universe. Your soul just wants to be happy, and it communicates with you through every decision, you just have to let it.

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Jennifer Diane is a witch scholar, writer and model living in New Jersey. She’s authored Folk Horror, Rural Horror, Devil’s Manifesto, Emotional Horrorshow, and will release Salvation and Please Just Me Die in February of 2024. You can find her on Instagram.

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